The Elysian Fields
“My sadness bleeds into my happiness. The cause of my emotional hemorrhage? Memories. Every. Fucking. Memory. The fluctuation of his tone in correspondence to how much he liked me that day. His taste in music that would inadvertently become my own.
That's the thing about reincarnation, the memories come in flashes and stay like lifetimes. How can I rationalize to my remedy that I miss the disease? Remedy and Disease- the two 'he's in this story, colliding in my mind like planets without orbit. I found myself fighting quiet battles night after night. The renown love of my life against the boy that put forth the ordinance of our meeting. Happy in the arms of one, sad that it couldn't be the other.”
Clairvoyance
“See my ensemble of tears?
You're the pain that put them here.
I was pledged, it was rare
to be ever enraptured by you.
I can be an array of stars,
I can rewrite the scriptures.
If not for you, then for another.
If the dust never settled, then neither will I.
As the moon orbits Earth in celestial dance,
so will I wait for my once in a lifetime.
To be traversal, to be known
by hinterland, by wilderness.
By chance, my home.
You were storm, I was shelter.
You were war, I was cover.
You're unchanging, I'm superior.
Remnants, pieces, fossils, embers.
To be remembered, the last of my letters.”
Florilegium
“A cluster of stars in the shape of a heart.
She‘s ethereal twilight.
She’s got you mesmerized.
You’re an elliptic galaxy staring beyond me.
The constellations in her eyes,
you have her memorized.
I gave you my whole sky for only half of yours.
I don’t trust star signs or signs from stars.
With your hand holding mine,
I felt the lies with every touch.
You wanted sunrise but I'm faded aurora.
I’ll never be her, your favorite September.
A cluster of stars in the shape of a heart.
I remember. You were my favorite September.”
